so the past month has been a roller coaster for me personally. everyone keeps asking how it's going and i can say good, but part of me feels like that is only half of it. I really want to say great, but once again i feel like i'm in a world of transition. With Chainglink i was always transitioning and i mean always. wether it was a new pastor (i worked with 7 different ones in 5 years), or new board members and trying to bring them up to speed on what is going on, or with the merger, and then the transition called adolescence and all that goes with working with students.
now i joined a community that is in the early stages of doing an entire constitutional rewrite, developing a mission statement, and figuring out how to move into the next phase of the communal life. Some think that this would be a good place to be, but in all honesty, i just want some stability. But if a can't have stability, at least keep moving forward. I hate stagnation and meeting about meetings and then waiting until the next meeting so someone can give a report for the committee that was formed out of the prior meeting. That is what drives me nuts about the church as a whole today. we want to meet about everything and take the longest, slowest route possible. RUN!!!
If you couldn't tell, i'm really frustrated in general and then throw on top of that, i'm wrestling with bitterness in my life about how everything was handled at Chainglink and the fact that my gut was right about my situation and i opted to not listen to it and the only thing that happened was i got burned.
Then, i don't feel like my relationship with God is doing all that great right now. I love Jesus, but i am going through a pretty dry spell right now and just feel like i'm wandering in the desert. i'm not looking for the promised land, i just want the pillar of fire, or dust, or just that still small voice speaking to me through all that is going on around me.
alright, that's all for now. for updates on the family, please check out Amber's page because i don't want to steal our families thunder and let her post about the exciting things happening in our family.
God bless.
