the disciples circle

So in my reading of Acts 1 & 2, i've decided that i could easily have been one of Jesus disciples.

Situation 1

Acts 1:5 "...and he proved to them in many ways that he was actually alive."  

really guys?  you couldn't accept the fact that Jesus was beat beyond recognition and that some of  you watched the breath leave his lungs, and now he is chillin with you?  You need him to "prove" that he was actually alive?  you couldn't take the proof of Thomas putting his finger into his side?  

then it hit me... how many times to i need Jesus to prove to me that he's still alive?  

Situation 2

Acts 1:24 - "...O Lord, you know every heart.  Show us which of these men you have chosen."  (to replace Judas)

Acts 1:26 - "then they cast lots."  

so they prayed for a couple days about a very important decision and then basically flipped a coin to see who God chose.  I have so done that!!  i am horrible when it comes to waiting for God to "show me."  So i'll leave it to petty things to show me "God's direction."  

the worst part is this happened in between a 10 day window of when Jesus told them that they will receive the Holy Spirit and have power to be his witness to when Jesus sent the Holy Spirit on the day of pentecost.  

how long are we willing to wait?  can we wait 10 days?  what if God wants us to wait longer?  am i willing to wait?  

thanks God for busting my chops.  

God's word...Still busting my chops

So i was reading Acts 1 & 2 tonight and came across some things that gave me hope and also busted my chops.  i thought i would share them with the world since my wife was just giving me flack for not updating my blog...

Acts 2:6 "When they heard the loud noise, everyone came running." 

     (referring to the day of Pentecost when the Holy Spirit descended into the upper room).

after i read this, i thought..."wow, is God's presence in my life causing curiosity in the lives of those around me?"  

right now, i think i'm safe to say that it's not.  I've been in a dry place for the past several months (many of you already knew that) and i'm just now starting to grow a pair and take care of business on my end.  I'm in the process of trying to re-focus and get off my pitty potty.   

God, may your presence be so obvious in my life it would cause curiosity in those around me, and give me the wisdom to answer the questions and the humility to point them to you.